Monday, 31 August 2015

After years of thinking that my grandad was from Cape Verde I’ve just discovered he was from Aden in Yemen and that’s so interesting and I can’t wait to find out more, whether he was a Muslim or Jewish and about his time as a merchant seaman in World War One but honestly I’m also pissed because I now feel like everything I’ve known about my heritage has been a lie 😔

Monday, 20 July 2015

I have been sitting in my kitchen on my own for an hour listening to I Only Have Eyes For You and chain smoking. Tears are streaming down my face and I honestly do not have any idea what is wrong with me.

Monday, 8 June 2015

It's 4am, it's light outside and I can't sleep. I'm watching Bob's Burgers and honestly I love this show so much. In my opinion it is the best cartoon ever. The jokes aren't racist/sexist/homophobic and the family love each other and never use other members as the butt of the jokes. It's perfect. It can be a bit dry sometimes and it's not laugh out loud funny but it's so clever and it makes me so happy. The fact I have to wait until October for series six is, in the words of Tina Belcher, ughhhhhhhhhhhhh, but I can watch every episode multiple times and it's still as heartwarming as the first time I watched it.

In other news I finished and passed the year. It's a high 2.2 and it could be better but honestly I'm happy with it. After first and second term I genuinely thought I was going to fail the year so I'm just glad I passed. I can't wait to get out of Egham for summer either. As much as I've grown to love the shit little place, I will always prefer being in Wales. I go back a week Saturday and I can't wait. This Saturday I fly out to Amsterdam with my flatmates for next year and I'm so excited! There are so many things I'm excited to do while I'm there. I'm sure it will be the best holiday I've ever had. Anyway I'm tired and should probably at least try and get some sleep. All the love. X

Monday, 13 April 2015

I just went for a run and I feel so fresh. If you know me then you know I do not exercise bar walking because I hate it. It's embarrassing when you're my size but today something just clicked and I was like no who cares what people think and I'm so glad I did because I'm so happy. Look at how much my skin is glowing. ☺☺☺

Sunday, 12 April 2015

Hello all. Sorry I haven't posted in a while, the fresh sea air of Wales has done me good and I've been able to sleep before or around 3 every night which is a massive achievement. I haven't been up to much recently. I've spent a lot of my time with my family which has been lovely. I've also seen all my friends twice which has been gorgeous. I haven't seen two of them since last summer and as soon as I saw them it just felt like old times again. They say you can pick your friends but not your family and when it comes to my friends I've definitely picked wisely. They are my family. Just missing Habbiba, she's stayed up in uni over the holidays and her precense has been missed. I've known that girl since I was two years old and it is so weird not to have her around but I see her regularly in Surrey as she's in Guildford and I'm in Egham (half hour on the train) and we're always in contact.

In my previous post I said I would start my essay but that hasn't happened. I will start it this week though, the thought of going through what I went through at Christmas (long story, won't bore you) with my essays again fills me with dread. I've been reading a lot, not the required reading for my course though which is bad, but a lot of fiction and I've fallen back in love with every aspect of literature. I've always adored it and sometimes I wish that I had read it at Oxbridge. I'm clever enough to have got the grades needed but was just never motivated and they would've written me off straight away because I wasn't good at maths. I had always been wary about classics as I tried them numerous times when I was younger but never really enjoyed them but I just finished Pride and Prejudice and now I'm starting North and South and I'm in love. I adored Pride and Prejudice as I saw aspects of myself in both Lizzie and Darcy. I''ve always been really quick to judge and if I dislike someone that's it, no going back from there. My pride is also one of my biggest flaws. My pride stops me from doing things I should jump at because I don't want to look like an idiot in front of people I know and respect and most importantly to myself. However I am overcoming this but I do need to work on my prejudice a lot. Fingers crossed I can learn from Lizzie.

Anyway that's all for now folks, I'm off to read North and South (I read that it's a bit like pride and prejudice for socialists and that's right up my street) but I'll be back soon. All the love and peace out. X

Monday, 30 March 2015

Hello again all. Hope you are all well. I'm good, I took a walk down to the beach today and sat and had a smoke on the pier. I genuinely felt so content, the fresh sea air did me good. I haven't done much else. I'm planning to just have a super chilled week and possibjy start my essay just so there's no rush this time. On Friday I'm going to go over Jo's house and catch up with my friends. I'm looking forward to it, it will be nice to catch up with everyone and hear everyone's news. In other news the general election campaign started today. I've always been political but living in Surrey has just enhanced my incredibly left wing principles. I don't want to bang on about politics and I certainly won't tell you who to vote for but I will urge you to vote because in a time when out NHS is under threat, 900,000 people have been using food banks and millionaires are getting tax cuts (you can probably tell I'm not fond of the coalition) it's important that we stand up and let our voices be heard. After writing that sentence I retract my earlier statement of not telling you who to vote for, please please vote Labour, the thought of another give years of the Eton elite makes me feel sick. Labour are in no way perfect and have strayed far from their socialist roots but in reality they are the only other option and they're the best ones for the job at the moment. Red Ed forever ❤ don't believe the Murdoch press propaganda. People will say what about the greens and to that I say don't waste your vote. Peace out guys. Alika x

P.s. I said in my last post that I'd probably talk about this guy that keeps popping up but he is no longer relevant. I'm not 16 anymore, I haven't got the energy for games and I certainly haven't got the energy to dedicate a whole post to this dickhead at quarter past four in the morning. X

Monday, 23 March 2015

Also I've been binge watching Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt and it's so hilarious everyone should watch it. It's so feminist and cute and funny, just watch. I've been getting into feminism a lot more lately. I'm too tired to expand on this at the moment but I will do soon. Peace Out x
I always keep coming back to this when I can't sleep so I think I'll be posting pretty regularly over the next few months. I am feeling a little upset today, I ran for the radio board and I majorly fucked up my speech and didn't get it and that's fine but it's ok to be disappointed. Anyway everything is all good other than that. Uni is better than it was the last time I posted. I did well in a presentation and it gave me the boost I needed as I'm averaging a low 2:2 at the moment so it was nice to hear. My love life is as dull as ever, there is this one boy that keeps coming and going and I can't stand it. I liked him for a long time and it was ok because I liked him from a distance and knew it would never go anywhere but I saw him out a couple of times in the summer and he keeps talking to me ever since and that's weird like don't do that I don't like it. I prefered it when there was no contact, that was better because it was just a soft spot for him but now there are so many questions flying around my head. And then after HE initiates the conversation he suddenly stops for a while and then comes back it's so annoying. My friends are all good. I'm moving in with three of the most beautiful people I've ever met next year and I can't wait. I live with one this year and can't wait to live with the other two. Bar the girl I'm living with next year and another one who is lovely, I'm not overly fond of any of my other current flatmates so I cannot wait to move out. One of them I can deal with but the other one is a snake who steals my things. I go home on Friday, I can't wait. I'll be home for a month and it'll be amazing. But that's about it in regards to my life. Peace Out x

Sunday, 1 February 2015

So this is my first blog post in over a year, I would apologise but I don't think anyone actually checks this. Anyway I thought I'd give you a quick update. I'm still in uni and I'm enjoying the experience, being independent and living alone is great, nobody can tell me what to do and I love that. I'm not enjoying the course though, it's dull as dishwater and I have no motivation but I'm halfway through now so I suppose I should stick at it. Everything else is still pretty much the same as ever, my love life is rubbish and my friends are the same as the ones I had when I first started this blog! oh I have a radio show now which is brilliant, I want to get into radio after I graduate so the experience is great. Hope you're all well xxx